Waiting

Life can be hard to deal with sometimes. When you try to carry it all alone it can become too heavy.

We try to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders and that’s not Gods plan for our lives. We have to remember to lay it at his feet. If it means minute by minute or hour by hour, we must leave it with him. If we ever want to move forward in life, we have to drop it at his feet daily.

We can achieve big things through him if we allow him to guide us and carry our burdens.

Have you laid your burdens at his feet today?

Time

Time waits for no one, it never stops.

Days turn into weeks, months into years. But no matter how long it’s been, we still miss our children.

Seasons change, flowers bloom, leaves fall, the cycle keeps going. The sun comes up and it goes down.

Some days we want to hide under the covers. Then there’s other days we think we might make it and that we really aren’t losing our minds.

if you are reading this post and you are also missing a child, we have to hold on to hope of a glad reunion day, one day. There will no longer be tears or sadness. Just happiness and celebrating forever.

Hold on to Jesus and those memories you have. We will see our babies again one day.

until next time…. let God comfort you!

Dreams

When you lose a loved one and you have a dream about them, it’s almost like a visit with them. Sometimes it may seem strange to people that never have faced what a mother feels when she dreams about that child.

It’s a happy feeling mixed with sadness. But I think God allows us those dreams because sometimes we just need a hug from them even if it’s in a dream.

So moms don’t feel like you are going crazy when these things happen. You are sane, we just have to learn to deal with the person we are. Stay strong!

Until next time…….

Traveling this journey with you!

Another day has come and gone

You may not have accomplished a thing today. You may have hid under the covers and cried your eyes out.

Let me give you hope… it’s going to get better. Grieving is a mental and physical task. It drains everything out of you.

But you must learn to pull yourself back up with Gods help. It may feel like God is far away but he is near the broken-hearted. Call out to him and let him help you make it a step at a time.

Set goals… if it’s just something small you accomplish each day. If you keep moving forward , though some days you can’t see for the tears, you will pull yourself out and you will see a day filled with sunshine again. You will learn how to cope. Your heart will never completely heal, but you can learn to live again.

Your child wouldn’t want you to give up.

Until next time…. traveling this journey with you…

Hole in my heart

From the moment I heard the words..”I’m sorry he didn’t make it”…. I’ve never been the same. It felt like someone reached in and ripped a piece of my heart out , but somehow it continued to beat. I still went through the motions of each day. It felt like a bad dream that I wanted so bad to wake up from.

I wanted to rewind time and be able to walk into my 12 year old daughters bedroom and see her sleeping and then to my 17 year old daughters room and my final round to their 19 year old brothers room. My heart always felt so complete when I would make that round each night. My babies, they may not have looked that way, but to me they were my babies, my gifts from God.

Thankfully I still have my daughters… and through those two, I have learned to smile again. I thank God over and over for them.

If you’re just beginning this journey and you feel you will never smile again…I promise you will! Hold tight to God and family. That’s the most important things in life.

Until next time… traveling this journey with you.

Life after loss

Welcome to my page. I hope I can maybe help someone in some small way. If you have just started on this journey of child loss or if you’ve been on it a while… I’m here to encourage you.

You may feel like life will never be the same. You will never be the person you were before you lost that child, but you can learn to live life again. My life changed almost 17 years ago. I had to learn to depend on God. First you have to accept that you need his help. He created your child and he created you. So Yes, he can take care of you.

You may feel like you are going crazy and that you can’t breathe another breath. But the sun will shine again.

I promise there’s a new morning after mourning. Reach out to God and let him guide you down this path.

In the future I will tell more of my story.

Until next time… hold on to Gods hand!